No clue what this is from but I love it.

" Scars heal, glory fades and all thats left are the memories made, pain
hurts but only for a minute, life is yours so go on and live it"

Something I made for lunch.

Got some boo boos!

Gggaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! I HATE mood swings And I'm not even PMSing. OMG shoot me

Funny Boyfriend

Haha so my boyfriend text's me at 3am to tell me that he woke up And was hungry so he walked down stairs moaning "FFFFOOOOOOOOOOODDDDD" And it woke up his parents And they freaked out because they thought someone broke into the house Lol. Haha I Love him :') ♡♥♡

some thoughts....

Rumors spread
 Reputations crumble
In the end
 We'll all be humble

Vanity vanity
Meaningless it has been called
Gosips will perish
Kingdoms will fall.

what point is there in living?
 is there a point at all?
pain is the only option for some
 a pain to cure them all

"Please don't do that!" there friends exclaim,
"You're only hurting yourself" they say.
"don't you understand?" I say,
 "oh don't you see?
that's why I do it
 I want to be free."

 pain heals suffering
 even if it means
hurting myself
 I mean...
...what do I mean?
I want to do it.
 I want to feel free.
I want to hurt myself so badly
 that people understand why
why I cry
 why demons haunt me
in the night
 why I can't take it
why my family fights

no one understands me.
 not one soul
I wish I could die
 I could live a new life
away from the pain
 away from the strife

alas I cannot
 I'm silly, you see,
I know that cuts hurt
 and I can't stand the pain
feeling a dull ache while healing
 hiding in vain
what's it worth?
I mean really...

in the end, what is it worth?
 I hate myself
because of my pain
 because I'm not pretty
and because I'm too vain
 because I'm too skinny
but not skinny enough...

 110 is a number,
a number I fear.
 It convinces me I'm not hungry
when I haven't ate yet that day
 five 'o clock comes around
I still haven't ate
I'm too worried about
 watching my weight

My mom asks if I'm eating,
 my friend tells her yes,
I say I'm not hungry,
 but my friend saw through that
I say ok and get some food,
my friend leaves


 I try to eat some
 my throat constricts at eating
even the thought
 I eat maybe half,
but maybe not

I just can't do this
 I feel so wrong
I sin every day
 I eat every day
I cry most nights
 I sleep sometimes

this cycle must end
 pain-sin-guilt-breakdown-sin
and over again

it must end soon
 before I go insane
before I
 before I do something undesireable
before I go insane

Lonely Lullaby

"Lonely Lullaby"

Symphony of silver tears,
Sing to me and sooth the ring in my ears,
Overcast these gloomy nights wear on,
But I'm holding fast because it's darkest just before the dawn.

I sang my princess fast asleep,
'Cause she was my dream come true,
Oh Annmarie, believe me, I loved you.

But now those lonely lullabies,
Just dampen my tired eyes,
Because I can't forget you.
Because I can't forget you.

I'll dissolve when the rain pours in,
When the nightmares take me,
I will scream with the howling wind,
'Cause it's a bitter world and I'd rather dream.

Dizzy love turned a star lily pink,
And hung above our lids too flushed to blink,
But icy blue froze the fairytale cold,
Though I treasured you and you sparkled with someone to hold.

I sang my princess fast asleep,
'Cause she was my dream come true,
Oh Annmarie, believe me, I loved you.

But now those lonely lullabies,
Just dampen my tired eyes,
Because I can't forget you.
Because I can't forget you.

I'll dissolve when the rain pours in,
When the nightmares take me,
I will scream with the howling wind,
'Cause it's a bitter world and I'd rather dream.

I'll dissolve when the rain pours in,
When the nightmares take me,
I will scream with the howling wind,
'Cause it's a bitter world and I'd rather dream.
And I'd rather dream.

Annmarie, I'll never forget you.
Annmarie, I'll never forget you.
Annmarie, remember me?
I'll never forget you.
Annmarie, remember me?
I'll never forget you.
Annmarie, remember me?
I'll never forget you.